i need new work outs to do.
sometimes i just feel so sick of being alive. my life was going so well, i don’t understand why my mom has to ruin everything. and she wonders why i’m searching for my birth parents? all i want is to be happy, but it’s so hard. i’m losing weight, i’m eating right, i try and i try but it’s never enough. i’m so stressed right now i can’t even keep my food down. i haven’t cut in so long and i want to so bad, but i keep stopping myself. i can’t do this anymore, i don’t even want to be here but i can’t just leave everyone. i can’t let you all believe this is your fault, but i just want to be gone. i want you back. i want my old self back. i just wish i could go back to the days when i was actually normal. when i didn’t have to deal with all of this stupid shit.
